Friendships

It is sad to me to see a friendship end.....I look back and know that I have been blessed by their friendships and the times we did have together. But....sometimes the Lord has people in our lives for a moment of time and it is not meant to be for a lifetime. I am grateful and truly blessed by the friendships in my life that are true, and regardless of situations will work through conflict and be open. Others have not had those situations where that is a lesson learned. I truly believe the Lord gives us times to learn how to grow and learn together and some do not want to be a part of that process. We are all human and have our moments.

It is also interesting to me how when you have children and friends with children that you have to be able to model as parents how to get along or your children will never learn that lesson.... Guess what? No child is perfect and no adult is perfect... so we just have to step back and know that even with good intentions sometimes they are not going to be communicated the right way to other people.

Right now I need to just cling to the Lord and trust that he has a plan for my family and for myself. He has always met my needs and has always walked me through times of conflict and difficulty. I need to stay focused on keeping my blood pressure down and keep in strong emotional health so that the baby stays healthy as well.

Doctor Visit

So, I had a doctor visit yesterday.. The baby was doing wonderfully.. The baby was all stretched with an arm behind his head, while using my bladder as a pillow.. Now that explains the inability to get through an hour without going to the bathroom. But....we got an adorable picture of his foot. I also had some concerns that because they could only see from the back, that the baby was not a boy. But......after the sono yesterday.....it is definitely a boy.... I am so relieved. Don't get me wrong, little girls are wonderful. In fact I have three sisters.... but they are also full of hormones and can be extremely difficult....I just don't have the patience for the girls....I am such a boy momma. I love my son and am excited to have another one.... The other side of yesterday is blood pressure...mine is a little high so we are watching closely. I will be in every two weeks here for a little bit to double check and make sure I am doing okay.. I am praying for a one time only high reading.....we will see...back to the doctor today...

Zanisms

Okay with the new baby coming Zander has asked and said some very interesting things...

Zan: Is the mailman going to bring the baby? Me: No Zan: Oh, is the Fedex man?

Zan: (after much sickness for me) are you going to throw up the baby? Me: no, I was sick with you too... Zan: you threw me up?

At the doctors office to the nurse: Nurse: do you have any name ideas? Zan: the baby's name is toilet....

From the back view it appears we are having a boy, but we are not for sure yet...Zan has always thought it is a girl.. so...at the sonogram
Nurse: I think it might be a boy. Zan: well, where did the girl go?

I know there have been more.. It seems like every day he has a new idea..

Has it been forever?????

Well, once again it has been a long time since I have been on here... The main reason is that I have spent pretty much the entire year working through the fertility process....And....it worked!!!! I am due on May 21....and I am so excited.....and I am soooooo sick......I need to find a few sewing patterns for blankets, burp cloths, and the like.... I am training for DCFS like a mad woman...two times a week right now.. It is tiring, but definitely rewarding.

Zander is growing by leaps and bounds.... He is going to preschool now and loving it...He talks about his teacher all the time... Sometimes I think that he would do what she says over what I would say. I am glad that he is having such a wonderful time and has moved passed so much of the anxiety that he has had in the past.... He is excited about being a big brother, and wants to buy all sorts of things for the baby (so do I).

Nathan is crazy at work....It has been a hard year, but I am hoping that he will get moved soon. Then maybe he will be in a better mood when he gets ready for work.

So for now...I need to get started organizing....Our house is an old farmhouse and not very big...but I have tons of closet space... What happens when you have lots of closets...you fill them all.. I need to get rid of the junk and start making room to organize for more than one child....