Friendships

It is sad to me to see a friendship end.....I look back and know that I have been blessed by their friendships and the times we did have together. But....sometimes the Lord has people in our lives for a moment of time and it is not meant to be for a lifetime. I am grateful and truly blessed by the friendships in my life that are true, and regardless of situations will work through conflict and be open. Others have not had those situations where that is a lesson learned. I truly believe the Lord gives us times to learn how to grow and learn together and some do not want to be a part of that process. We are all human and have our moments.

It is also interesting to me how when you have children and friends with children that you have to be able to model as parents how to get along or your children will never learn that lesson.... Guess what? No child is perfect and no adult is perfect... so we just have to step back and know that even with good intentions sometimes they are not going to be communicated the right way to other people.

Right now I need to just cling to the Lord and trust that he has a plan for my family and for myself. He has always met my needs and has always walked me through times of conflict and difficulty. I need to stay focused on keeping my blood pressure down and keep in strong emotional health so that the baby stays healthy as well.

Doctor Visit

So, I had a doctor visit yesterday.. The baby was doing wonderfully.. The baby was all stretched with an arm behind his head, while using my bladder as a pillow.. Now that explains the inability to get through an hour without going to the bathroom. But....we got an adorable picture of his foot. I also had some concerns that because they could only see from the back, that the baby was not a boy. But......after the sono yesterday.....it is definitely a boy.... I am so relieved. Don't get me wrong, little girls are wonderful. In fact I have three sisters.... but they are also full of hormones and can be extremely difficult....I just don't have the patience for the girls....I am such a boy momma. I love my son and am excited to have another one.... The other side of yesterday is blood pressure...mine is a little high so we are watching closely. I will be in every two weeks here for a little bit to double check and make sure I am doing okay.. I am praying for a one time only high reading.....we will see...back to the doctor today...

Zanisms

Okay with the new baby coming Zander has asked and said some very interesting things...

Zan: Is the mailman going to bring the baby? Me: No Zan: Oh, is the Fedex man?

Zan: (after much sickness for me) are you going to throw up the baby? Me: no, I was sick with you too... Zan: you threw me up?

At the doctors office to the nurse: Nurse: do you have any name ideas? Zan: the baby's name is toilet....

From the back view it appears we are having a boy, but we are not for sure yet...Zan has always thought it is a girl.. so...at the sonogram
Nurse: I think it might be a boy. Zan: well, where did the girl go?

I know there have been more.. It seems like every day he has a new idea..

Has it been forever?????

Well, once again it has been a long time since I have been on here... The main reason is that I have spent pretty much the entire year working through the fertility process....And....it worked!!!! I am due on May 21....and I am so excited.....and I am soooooo sick......I need to find a few sewing patterns for blankets, burp cloths, and the like.... I am training for DCFS like a mad woman...two times a week right now.. It is tiring, but definitely rewarding.

Zander is growing by leaps and bounds.... He is going to preschool now and loving it...He talks about his teacher all the time... Sometimes I think that he would do what she says over what I would say. I am glad that he is having such a wonderful time and has moved passed so much of the anxiety that he has had in the past.... He is excited about being a big brother, and wants to buy all sorts of things for the baby (so do I).

Nathan is crazy at work....It has been a hard year, but I am hoping that he will get moved soon. Then maybe he will be in a better mood when he gets ready for work.

So for now...I need to get started organizing....Our house is an old farmhouse and not very big...but I have tons of closet space... What happens when you have lots of closets...you fill them all.. I need to get rid of the junk and start making room to organize for more than one child....

Easter and Cleaning..

We had a great Easter! I am starting to feel like myself again. The husband will be happy that I am getting back on top of things at the house. I now need to organize all of my craft fun. I have a scarf and headband in the process of being knitted. I would love to pull out all my card making supplies tonight........We will see..... I can't wait until Saturday afternoon and another card making party..... Now, if it would just warm up a little, so Zander would stop going crazy......

Tired

It seems like forever since I have blogged, but things have been crazy....... We made it through Christmas, a third miscarriage, and my son's 3rd birthday. A lot of threes this year. We have begun the fertility process and I must say that it is not very fun..... Hopefully, we will have some answers when we are done. I have found a great organization through it all, though:Women helping Women. What a great ministry that provides such amazing support.... It is and will be a great time of growing for me......I look forward to the final outcome for myself spiritually as well as the possible ability to have another healthy pregnancy....

Tis' The Season

It is the time of year where things are just crazy. I have been so busy this month that I am starting to dream about what needs to get done next. Yesterday my friend Carrie, another teacher, and I had our students perform Christmas pieces at one of the local nursing homes. They did a great job, despite the piano being extremely out of tune (Samuel Music saved us and brought out a keyboard), the people from the nursing home talking and singing throughout their songs, and the horrible headache that I had all day. But..... what a good experience for everyone and I know that people at the home were able to enjoy all of the adorable children and their wishes for a wonderful holiday.

The night before that my mother-in-law took the family to see the Trans-Siberian Orchestra. It was an amazing concert!!! It was a perfect description of my husband and I : rock and classical. It is the first concert we have attended together that we both enjoyed!!!

Today, I must finish knitting three scarves and hopefully get the house back under control after my husband and Zander spent the day together yesterday. So... I must get started...